I was overwhelmed and scared in divorce process because STBX (Soon To Be Ex) wants the figures... Her Lawyer  has introduced The Scott Schedule (TSS). Tell me everything from 2023!!! Arghhh.

She likes the figures - I like the Big Rocks. Anyway TSS  values everything three and half years ago; Separation Date, and you split everything in half. Trouble is my shares crashed 87% since then and if that happens I am wiped out! Arghhh...

So how to organise the files to deal with this and present THE FIGURES! How to slow my mind down to cope and stop the shaking? How to overcome The Avoidance. 

I will be preparing figures that she will then evaluate - so I am in her power and I am on the back foot. She is great at the linear admin... You may gather that I am not. She used to do it all. Left. Now I'm having to do it all. But I'm the artist.. darling!!!

This conversation will reference Dave Allens GTD - Getting Things Done. A filing system I have embodied for years. It will explore small files - lots of them rather than few files with layers below... It will explore sub pages in a clean way. It will explore a visual format that reminds me what I've done when I come back to it. It will embody LOCKED areas!

I am seeing a way to order this and remind myself, when I go back, what I have done and to - importantly - be able to LOCK OFF a DONE! To complete it, and to be reminded I have COMPLETED IT!!! That will give me breakthroughs everywhere....

I find it very difficult to do the figures for the divorce I am going through. THe emotional trauma, the legal issues that I am very wary of and conversant with and the outcome of pain. All allied to to - I am being forced to do what I hate doing - slow tedious figures -0 so that I can have money taken off me. So I avoid.

Now I have been served with a Court Appearance to encourage me to get things done. A deadline helps. And I'm working through the figures. The hard part is simplifying what is needed. I have never done this before. What is the minimum design of documentation that clearly PROVES areas that my STBX (Soon To Be Ex) has demanded. Some of which are overkill and appear as Document Bombing  (a legal strategy to unsettle the respondent, me.

And I played the F1 movie through this beautiful hot afternoon, when I could be down the beach but I am trawling through figures. And something of the energy and noise and the story I know so well is company, is calming, enables me... And Indigo is with me. What's going on...

I aim to be i the enquiry about this from now on. Picking up on observations of how I can get some peace, over my angst at being forced to do this and to be more effective. One step at a time. And i did do the gym this morning and take dog for walk and I have created a nice wrk space and .... I am not so confused by the scope of it all today. Funny huh?

My gym - Global in Kelowna, BC - has a system whereby you can do classes. They used to Fine yo 20 $ if you didn't turn up. Which was great for me because, even when I didn't feel like going I would have to  go, or pay the Fine. People complained, so they stopped it. Gives me a let off. I like discipline, accountability, being shouted at... Why?

And why is it easier and relaxing to go and do HIIT classes. High Intensity Work Outs I think - for fifty to sixty minutes the exercises are set. The whistle blows. You just focus on what you are doing. It is great... Why?

And whey can I do so much more when I am coached and encouraged and with a group of people going for it rather than being alone - where I 'currently' spend my working life!