Some know exactly what they want to be and do in life, and / or they simply have confidence and discover as they go.
Some die before opportunity and/or their lack of courage has them dare go for their hearts call.
Some take a iifetime to discover what they should have been doing in the first place.
I am the latter. Although, truth be told, I always knew that heart call. I just had some unknown issues in the way which manifested as lack of trust and courage.
I am a creative. I observe - and create... A million files on the computer that 'right now' could be filed under the global heading - AVOIDANCE. Or Vanity Project,
Finally, I start to step. Finally I clearly see I can't do this alone and realise what is possible. Alone; my fears, scripts and excuses always win. We are all amazing, I/we just weren't designed to be alone.
To be 'we' takes courage for me. Addressing why that has been so and my desire to break free from it fuel to: song, story and my lifetime of trying to get myself fixed. Yet I love being part of a great team. I can lead... I just have to be placed in a position where -'Take that hill' - inpires my action. I am a Commando, not a foot soldier.
So this work for me is literally about learning to take the LID OFF THE BOX of life and be MAKING CRAZY WORK. Learning to be uncomfortable, scared and vulnerable (but not alone in that) the journey unfolding. And the curve ball just discovered is why I react as I do to the world. A type of Aspergers Syndrome we think. So now at least I know what I am dealing with...
Right now, because it's taken me so long to create base I can step from and investments that tanked I am really up against it. However this does scare me into action. So join me in DREAMTRYB, get you friends to join too. As sting said - I am 'sending out an SOS.' Love
Nicky Slater / NICKSTIR
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Photo: 2016 © Clive Minnican - Unreleased Album Cover changed from Searching For Me... 2024 - Re - Producing tracks with new voice, tone and overall sound...